It’s been a while since my last post. I had family in town and didn’t have a whole lot of time to sit down and write. So my apologies to those of your who have been following and reading all year. With that said, let me wrap this up and let you all know how I’ve been.
I started 2014 with the goal to become a happier, more confident person. As I stated in my very first post:
I feel a lot of pressure as a husband and a father to make sure my family is taken care of. I’ve let life get me down and I also have anxiety problems. I’ve never been a real confident person. I want all this to change and I plan to write about it here.
This was my challenge to myself. I can say with complete honesty to you and myself that I nailed it. My outlook and philosophy on life has changed completely. In only one year!
At the end of 2013 I was riddled with anxiety. I felt it physically and would have panic attacks. It was affecting me and my family as well. After reading the book, “Wisdom of Insecurity” by Alan Watts I started to look at the world in a whole new way.
One big change in my perception was of what time I set my focus on, meaning, past, present or future. I choose to start looking only at the present moment. This is not to say that I haven’t planned for a future but I didn’t dwell solely on the future as I had in the past. I also didn’t focus on the past, realizing that each present moment was an opportunity for change.
Early on, I met a lot of great people through Word Press and even won an award for my blogging which really helped me realize I was on the right track. It gave me a lot of motivation to keep going.
In March or April, I injured myself running and it was a bit of a wake up call for me. I wanted to much to run in a 5k and had even signed up for one. The injury put me out and a co-worker ran in my place. Through it all, I kept my focus positive by expanding my charitable giving. Incredible things happened when I raised for a couple of different organizations this year. A large part of this was due to the 100 Happy Days challenge I participated in. And with that came an article that featured ME on Headline News!
There were some ups and downs, however. In April I started to feel a little anxious but it faded quickly. Again in June I felt a little uneasy, but it too faded quickly. Since then, however, I’ve never felt better. I stopped following politics and most news and that has done wonders for how I see humanity in general!
2014 ended 108 degrees from where I was at the beginning. Anxiety is something I don’t really deal with anymore. I’ve learned a lot of wisdom and philosophy. I’ve conquered a pretty big giant in my life as well!
So what will happen to this blog in 2015 now that I’ve accomplished my goal? There are always giants in your life to conquer. Since injuring myself early on, I’ve done very very little physical activity. I bought myself and my wife a Fitbit and am going to start my yoga practice up again.
I also plan to continue my meditation practice once my kids are back in school and keep fighting my giants as well as going more in-depth on how to keep anxiety away. I hope you will join me on my journey.
Be well. Be positive.